Trigger Warning (TW):  Discussion About Alcohol & Disordered Eating Alcohol was a big part of my identity for a good 16+ years of my life. Through most of junior high and high school I was “Straight Edge”, with a t-shirt stating it boldly to the WORLD in Coca-Cola Style Print. I thought it was ironic because I have diabetes and didn’t drink Regular Coke (GASP), so teenie bopper Jess thought it was SO funny. Before: Straight Edge Jess But towards the end of junior year, into senior year I started to think “I should at least TRY before I decide” And so, my alter ego “Shotgun Jess” was born. In the beginning, Shotgun Jess was the cool, new grown up Jess. She was ready to party and dance the night away. It melted away my insecurities, of which there were many, allowing me to finally throw caution to the wind. But without at least some caution, there were most definitely consequences, most of which was throwing up and/or making a fool of myself. While attending undergrad at Penn State,